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High fucking school
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8/29/10
12:32 PM
Song : The One That Got Away - Katy Perry
Well..
High school so far is a roller coaster ride.
I have my ups and downs. The top of my euphoria and my lowest of low. Sometimes I feel so frustrated, I just cry. Yeah, I'm such a sissy. Yadda yadda yadda.
They say, freshman year is the hardest (well, at least there are 2 girls in Dailybooth who told me so). But, one of them said "just be yourself", but that didn't help. Well, it helped.. But, that didn't help for some of my cases.
And one of them said, "Hey, you could survive this far right?", well yeah.. I could survive freshman year this far, and who's stopping me? No one apparently.
I feel sometimes, high school (somehow) demands you to be prettier, skinnier. I feel like a fugly shit everytime those girls pass by the halls. I know, I sounded like an.... ababil. Yeah sure. But, that's how I feel. I know I have to be myself, but it's hard to be yourself when all the things that swirling around demands YOU, to be BETTER.
Try living that life.
People changes. I surely hope I don't. Probably, I'm getting more and more pessimistic? I hope not.
At least, I have those of my new friends who I could talk and laugh with. Girls, and boys. I know I'm not pretty, I'm not skinny. But at least, I could still have a laugh with my new friends, freshmans like me, sophmores, and seniors. Though, some of them actually hates me.
WHO THE FUCK CARES?
My words to you all freshmans out there.
Don't let freshman year tear you down like shit, it tore me down so far but I could see the positive sides in it. Show 'em what you could do.
Stygr8,
Sarah
ps. I should keep my fucking mouth shut throughout high school, well maybe I could shut it a little bit *winks*